Hair Shirt...

i'm not concrete,
nor am i paper and pen
not a clown to prance
for your amusment
im a beggar
throw me alms
as you pass me by
but be sure, please,
not to look me in the eyes
for they never lie
i cannot help the way i am
don't even try to understand
ever the child, never a man
catagorized and profiled
ever since my life began
look away now
something you may have not seen
some emotions are more than obscene
i want to scream
and rend my hair and gnash my teeth
what must i do
when will i believe
i've never known what i really need
just what i lack...
           04-19-10