How Long...

I go to sleep hoping i don't wake
     given all of what little i have and can
but this life is more than can take
     just once, dear god, i 'd  like to get a break
instead of lying like a broken toy
     What joy lurks, where does it wait
look in the mirror, hating what i see
    the fool who learned not in school
with feet of clay and fears that won't go away
    people listen but don't hear what i say
if you could only walk in my shoes for a day
     i cry, i rant, to whatever god will listen i  pray
hoping for something good to come my way
     and when it does don't let me ruin it
but it always seems that way...